Well what can I say, A lot has happen since the last post as always when I return to make a new entry. This time all the changes are in the right direction. I am proud to say that I have started to do the things that I preach about so much to you. I have realized that I was giving out advice but not doing what I say. Well now I have finally figured it all out and Im tired of killing my self doing for others while they do nothing for me when I am down and out and need help. I have always said you need to do for your self first then others. For long time I did things for others then I did for me. It just does not work out well that way and it all lead to a massive melt down that I stopped before it got out of control. I have finally helped my self first and now I feel re-born. I gotta say I am so happy now in my life. It was hard to make the choices I have, but it was the right ones and it took years to make them. I had chose to stay where I was at and suffer deeply for the ones I love. I stayed thinking that it was my duty to be there in the way that I did until I crashed & burned one day. Mar. 06 was that day that apart of me died and was replaced with a new hope of life, My eyes was opened as if an angel came into my life and showed me how to love my self. I am glad to say for the first time in my life I really am in control and things for me are the best, but it is still not easy and there is a long road to travel. As I make my journey down this road, I have manage to grow a great deal, Learn a whole lot and pick up the tools I need to make it further in life and with all of this said. I am finally free. I am happy so so so very happy. I want to say thank you to the people who have helped me through this in the last month and you know who you are. I love you all for showing me the way, making it clear to me how I should be treated and letting me know its ok to love my self first. I now know who my true friends are to all the rest that are full of shit, GO FUCK YOUR SELF.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
No Thanks To You, Thank You
Well what can I say, A lot has happen since the last post as always when I return to make a new entry. This time all the changes are in the right direction. I am proud to say that I have started to do the things that I preach about so much to you. I have realized that I was giving out advice but not doing what I say. Well now I have finally figured it all out and Im tired of killing my self doing for others while they do nothing for me when I am down and out and need help. I have always said you need to do for your self first then others. For long time I did things for others then I did for me. It just does not work out well that way and it all lead to a massive melt down that I stopped before it got out of control. I have finally helped my self first and now I feel re-born. I gotta say I am so happy now in my life. It was hard to make the choices I have, but it was the right ones and it took years to make them. I had chose to stay where I was at and suffer deeply for the ones I love. I stayed thinking that it was my duty to be there in the way that I did until I crashed & burned one day. Mar. 06 was that day that apart of me died and was replaced with a new hope of life, My eyes was opened as if an angel came into my life and showed me how to love my self. I am glad to say for the first time in my life I really am in control and things for me are the best, but it is still not easy and there is a long road to travel. As I make my journey down this road, I have manage to grow a great deal, Learn a whole lot and pick up the tools I need to make it further in life and with all of this said. I am finally free. I am happy so so so very happy. I want to say thank you to the people who have helped me through this in the last month and you know who you are. I love you all for showing me the way, making it clear to me how I should be treated and letting me know its ok to love my self first. I now know who my true friends are to all the rest that are full of shit, GO FUCK YOUR SELF.
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